I think i first felt this when my mother passed away. I still feel that void today.
But more recently i realized i have lost the opportunity to be a father. I never knew my biological father and together with the loss of my mother and the opportunity to be a father myself, something dawned on me....
I have no ties to the past or the future. I'm not sure how to feel about this. There is a loneliness there that can't be put into words.
But what better state to learn dependance on God?
I only wish that being broken didn't hurt so much.
