Next step is the chaplaincy program!!!
Thursday, May 4, 2017
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Grateful for little things...
Today as I was watching a scene from the movie 'Unbroken', I watched a man look down at his 'bunk' really just a wooden pallet with a thin wafer like 'pillow' and it reminded me of all the times I spent trying to sleep in a cold holding cell on a hard bench with a wadded up paper sack or nothing at all for a pillow. Sometimes handcuffed, occasionally beaten and often going through withdrawals. And I am reminded of all that I am blessed with today and feel guilty for my attitude.
There was a time not too long ago that I was overjoyed to receive a set of shoe laces.
Lord, forgive me for my forgetfulness. Forgive me for my selfishness and never let me forget the depths from which I've come from or your amazing grace that brought me out of those depths. And let me be forever grateful for however much, or however little I have for your grace is sufficient for me.
Amen, and amen!
Monday, December 2, 2013
Permanent losses...
There is something haunting about the realization that you have lost something.... for good.
I think i first felt this when my mother passed away. I still feel that void today.
But more recently i realized i have lost the opportunity to be a father. I never knew my biological father and together with the loss of my mother and the opportunity to be a father myself, something dawned on me....
I have no ties to the past or the future. I'm not sure how to feel about this. There is a loneliness there that can't be put into words.
But what better state to learn dependance on God?
I only wish that being broken didn't hurt so much.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Signs of the times...
Revelation 18:
| 22 And the voice of harpers, and musicians, and of pipers, and trumpeters, shall be heard no more at all in thee; and no craftsman, of whatsoever crafthe be, shall be found any more in thee; and the sound of a millstone shall be heard no more at all in thee; |
| 23 And the light of a candle shall shine no more at all in thee; and the voice of the bridegroom and of the bride shall be heard no more at all in thee: for thy merchants were the great men of the earth; for by thy sorceries were all nations deceived. Yesterday i was at my grandparents house talking with my grandfather in the front yard. After a while of looking up and down the street, he suddenly looked very sad and said to me, " you never hear the sounds of children playing in the streets anymore. " Jeremiah 25:10 Moreover I will take from them the voice of mirth, and the voice of gladness, the voice of the bridegroom, and the voice of the bride, the sound of the millstones, and the light of the candle. Christ compared the kingdom of heaven to small children and being childlike. It is no coincidence their voices are no longer heard in the streets. Christ also said we should be able to discern the times. WE ARE NEAR THE END AND JUDGEMENT IS COMING! |
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Home again.
Been a minute since i posted anything so..... Well, i'm finally home with my wife and family and a whole new set of trials begin but I just wanted to state that life is good and I feel very blessed to have come through the last three years sober and accomplished. What will the next three years bring? I don't know but i'm looking forward to it. For God's glory!!!
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Prologue to 'A Tale Of Three Kings' by G. Edwards....
THE ALMIGHTY, living God turned to Gabriel and gave a command.
"Go, take these two portions of my being. There are two destinies waiting. To each unborn destiny give one portion of myself."
Carrying two glowing, pulsating lights of Life, Gabriel opened into the realm between two universes and disappeared. He stepped into the Mall of Unborn Destinies.
Gabriel spoke: "I have here two portions of the nature of God. The first is the very cloth of his nature. When wrapped about you, it clothes you with the breath of God. As water surrounds a person in the sea, so will his very breath envelop you. With this, the divine breath, you will have His power- power to subdue armies, shame the enemies of God, and accomplish His work on the earth. Here is the power of God as a gift. Here is immersion into the spirit."
A destiny stepped forward: "This portion of God is for me."
"True," replied the angel. "And remember, whoever receives such great power will surely be known by many. Ere your earthly pilgrimage is done, your true character will be known; yea, it will be revealed by means of this power. Such is the destiny of all who want and wield this portion, for it touches only the outer person, affecting the inner person not one whit. Outer power will always unveil the inner resources or the lack thereof."
The first destined one received the gift and stepped back.
Gabriel spoke again.
"I have here the second of two elements of the living God. This is not a gift but an inheritance. A gift is worn on the outer person; an inheritance is planted deep inside- like a seed. Yet, even though it is such a small planting, this planting grows and, fills all the inner person."
Another destiny stepped forward. "I believe this element is to be mine for my earthly pilgrimage."
"True," responded the angel again. "I must tell you that what has been given to you is a glorious thing- the only element in the universe that can change the human heart. Yet even this element of God cannot accomplish its task nor grow and fill your entire inner being unless it is compounded well. It must be mixed lavishly with pain, sorrow, and crushing."
The second destined one received the inheritance and stepped back.
Beside Gabriel sat the angel Recorder. He dutifully entered into his ledger the record of the two destinies.
"And who shall these destinies become after they go through the door to the visible universe?" asked the Recorder.
Gabriel replied softly, "Each, in his time, shall be king."
from 'A TALE OF THREE KINGS'
by Gene Edwards
"Go, take these two portions of my being. There are two destinies waiting. To each unborn destiny give one portion of myself."
Carrying two glowing, pulsating lights of Life, Gabriel opened into the realm between two universes and disappeared. He stepped into the Mall of Unborn Destinies.
Gabriel spoke: "I have here two portions of the nature of God. The first is the very cloth of his nature. When wrapped about you, it clothes you with the breath of God. As water surrounds a person in the sea, so will his very breath envelop you. With this, the divine breath, you will have His power- power to subdue armies, shame the enemies of God, and accomplish His work on the earth. Here is the power of God as a gift. Here is immersion into the spirit."
A destiny stepped forward: "This portion of God is for me."
"True," replied the angel. "And remember, whoever receives such great power will surely be known by many. Ere your earthly pilgrimage is done, your true character will be known; yea, it will be revealed by means of this power. Such is the destiny of all who want and wield this portion, for it touches only the outer person, affecting the inner person not one whit. Outer power will always unveil the inner resources or the lack thereof."
The first destined one received the gift and stepped back.
Gabriel spoke again.
"I have here the second of two elements of the living God. This is not a gift but an inheritance. A gift is worn on the outer person; an inheritance is planted deep inside- like a seed. Yet, even though it is such a small planting, this planting grows and, fills all the inner person."
Another destiny stepped forward. "I believe this element is to be mine for my earthly pilgrimage."
"True," responded the angel again. "I must tell you that what has been given to you is a glorious thing- the only element in the universe that can change the human heart. Yet even this element of God cannot accomplish its task nor grow and fill your entire inner being unless it is compounded well. It must be mixed lavishly with pain, sorrow, and crushing."
The second destined one received the inheritance and stepped back.
Beside Gabriel sat the angel Recorder. He dutifully entered into his ledger the record of the two destinies.
"And who shall these destinies become after they go through the door to the visible universe?" asked the Recorder.
Gabriel replied softly, "Each, in his time, shall be king."
from 'A TALE OF THREE KINGS'
by Gene Edwards
Saturday, July 13, 2013
A word on my current state...
First off, I want to state that I am a FOLLOWER of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. I stress follower because I did not choose this for myself. HE chose me. I once believed that the bible was either a confusiistic metaphor or creative myth. I now know that it IS truth. Christ is real AND alive! I dont believe this... I KNOW this. I can not prove this, so don't ask me to. There is only one who can prove this to you and He wants YOU to know Him. He IS the way, the truth and the light. He IS the redeemer. He IS the king of kings and the lord of lords. He IS the word through which all things were made and consist. He gave His life so that YOU might live and live abundantly. HE LOVES YOU!!! He IS..... JESUS CHRIST!!!
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